This time last year, I underwent a really depressing phase. Same time this year, I am going through yet another depressing one; it's baffling. I have been let down many times before, but this is one of the first that really hit me this hard. Disappointment has never felt so difficult to take in, so difficult to deal with. Perhaps it was because of the enormous amount of faith, belief and expectation I have placed in from the beginning. I should have been smarter after all these time, that words are so superficial and that people go back on theirs all the time. It's been a while since I felt this lost; all I am feeling is a well of emptiness and a repetition of "what am I going to do now?" Sigh, another episode of feeling that life is just so exceedingly difficult sometimes.
Moving on, I am proud to say that I survived my wisdom tooth surgery few days back, went under sedative for the first time, got 3 of my tooth out and it sure does still feel surreal. Had to part with so much money for this, thankfully it's a one-off thing. Recovery has been going pretty alright, but the desire to chew on something is just too infuriating. Hopefully in a few more days..